As a spiritualist, a couple of the things I believe in are the concepts of past lives and spirit guides. In our past lives, we learn lessons which we carry onto our present lives, but we also make mistakes which we can rectify with hard work and determination. In each life, we also have a unique story which is locked and stored inside our souls. We can access them if we have the determination to do so.
Spirit guides are divine entities who help us in our current life – there are people who listen to them well instinctively, and others who block them out completely. Their purpose to help us achieve our life goals and create a fulfilling life. They are our teachers whom we learn many lessons from in unexpected ways; they are our protectors who give us warnings, hoping that we hear their call. They come in all forms, shapes and sizes – from animals to people to otherworldly creatures. They can be past relatives, past lovers (from previous lifetimes) to highly spiritual beings.
For a while now, I have suspected one of my guides to be a past life lover. When I glimpsed his face last time, memories flooded back and he quickly hid himself from me again, which can get frustrating at times. I did some channel writing and he revealed a few slight details to me, but I was still unsure of myself. I am still in a very large learning process of what I am actually capable of.
Today, when I had a tarot reading done by a fellow psychic friend, we sat on the floor and started discussing my guides (as well as talking to them). We started to talk about how my guides are connected to me – one is my grandmother, whom I refer to as Mamang, from my father’s side. She is particularly selective, and is one of my primary guides. Mamang holds a lot of pride in regards to me, and is a very strict, tough woman. I love her dearly, and she is one of the sources in which I draw strength and courage from.
I have another guide by the name of Archaeus, as he refers himself to me. He appears to me in a guise of a very elderly, wise man. He is moreso a teacher than a guide – I have several lessons in which I need to partake in with him, and so far I have only completed one.
There is also a young guide in my presence – she is learning how to guide. I have had some contact with her, and I have sent her off on a couple of tasks before. She is often in the background, but we will be better acquainted in future.
The guide who was my past life lover (from a very long time ago – approximately 400 B.C.) goes by the name of Shin (神) – that is how he first revealed himself to me. I am studying Japanese so I recognized it as “Shin” rather than the traditional Chinese pronounciation, Shen (which is his ‘proper’ name). He is rather reserved and shy; a very proper man with a background of wealth. In that lifetime, I was a mere commoner in the lower class while he was part of a middle class family. Our union was looked down upon and said to have brought his family shame. It seems that we kept our relationship hidden but it was not a fruitful life in terms of love. There were no children born between us and there was no recognition from his family.
Millenia have passed, and in this lifetime (at least), he has found me once again and offers his services to me as a spiritual guide. He hides his face from me in order to prevent me from remembering because he wants me to focus on my life now and not the past.
I still love him dearly, platonically, and I am grateful for his care over me.
Mamang is a little unsure about him though. The way she refers to him is that he is from “another time”, meaning that he is not directly related to my current incarnation.
I would love to learn more about my past lives – I have had glimpse of a fair few. For most part, I know what kind of life I had in those previous lifetimes, and there are some of my past lovers around in my current life whom I am still connected to in some way. Perhaps one day, when I rediscover those stories, I will write them down as a keepsake.
